Aiya Earendil Elenion Ancalima!

Mi hermana pequenita Nina, Mi hermanos delgados JR y Kevin, mi hijas Yvette y Zar, y el 'badass' Dondi, CONGRATULATIONS ALL!!!!

:D

and with that, there's only one more thing to say:

BURGERBURGERBURGERBURGERBURGERBURGERBURGERBURGER

EDIT:

Ay, !que horror! i forgot Christalline! Deym. Sorry Christa. Congrats din, hwekhekhek.

from wilfrido guerrero's "Frustrations"

Aurora: So happiness is not forever.

Araceli: My dear, but there is happiness.

Aurora: Yes -- but merely moments of happiness.

Araceli: True, my dear.

***

Araceli: You must quench the fire of your heart, child....Emotions are oftentime treacherous -- we must be firm in holding the reins, lest they run wild.

***

Araceli: My son, always remember this, this implacable rule of nature: in every love, however mutual, one loves less profoundly than the other.

Victor: I found that out -- to my regret.

***

Araceli: In matters of love, my dear, the best way is to avoid seeing the person. Love feeds itself on the nearness of the loved.

***

wala lang. back to work.

it just occured to me that the people i've been closest to are moving away from me, more often than not in the literal sense. haha. emo-ing (ha. a word I just learned upon entering college, and therefore seemingly inappropriate for the occassion) over my high school friends. two have moved to Canada, one's moving to the U.S. as well. One used to be in lasalle but moved to benilde; she used to live in las pinas but they had to move to makati (hence she's not too available for sleepover reunions anymore). One's in Manila Doctor's. A great many are in UST. One's in Ateneo and one's in Perpetual. One's in lasalle, but I rarely see her. Countless more are well, spread out haha, but I've prolly tackled those that mattered the most.

we used to be the weird introvert anime-lover-bookworms, or the studious ones who were always asked to do the props for a class play, who hung out in places such as under the stairs or just walking around campus talking about everyday stuff like Tasuki and Soujiro and Mamoru and the Sanzo-ikko, or reciting the "Three rings for the Elven Kings..." verse in Lord of the Rings, or how would Jesus beat Son Goku in a fight (we were probably hungry when this conversation popped up LOL).

On intramurals I, together with two more of the closest friends I have, would argue with each other on how to kinesthetically interpret this or that verse of the cheer, come to a consensus, then argue again on how exactly we were going to teach hundreds of pesky, forgetful, complaining batchmates these steps (which always won, haha). then together with MKM (yes, we had a weird name for our group) we'd recount the times when we were almost squished by the school bus (which was going at a snail's pace), or sing some anime songs for good measure, or inquire who passed what exam, or conspire how they're going to get me in one room with some guy we used to designate "28".  haha.

Or, when with another group of friends, all girls this time, we'd go and have a sleepover at someone's house, wake up the ghouls with dreadful karaoke singing, maybe play a bit of Playstation (last time we did that it was DDR and FatalFrame 3), eat some pizza, talk for ages, maybe plan the next sleepover. Or mull over school. Or watch a movie (one time we watched two towers and return of the king back-to-back, and we were fighting over what lines came next in Two Towers. And around the middle of ROTK there was an intense earthquake, haha!)

Though we usually cram for it, our class loves to practice for plays. We'd start late, of course, because we have to wait for everybody to be there at our classmates' house. So while most of us are sipping Coke sakto or buying snacks from the sari-sari store, some of the boys and girls would be shooting pool. One time I think we even played ice-ice-water to pass the time. yeah we probably crammed because of all those delaying tactics, not to mention the fact that we keep horsing around while we are practicing. Ah well. Looking back I missed the loyalty only a dysfunctional 4th year class can induce.

Holy crap. That was so high school. And those were the days. It's time for a reunion, but this blasted schedule, gahhh. Dreadful. I have not seen most of them for ages. I better let them help me refresh my memory before it fades, I miss them all so terribly.

*A Post I Should've Made Yesterday!*....so pretend I did.

haha, this morning I was a primary color!!

ei, if the happy headgear fotos are uploaded, lemme know, NG :D

grrr. stupid Spider Solitaire. Have more losses than wins. Grrrr.

hey, how am I supposed to describe a house built to overlook a lush valley while surrounded by thicket-covered mountains--oh wait, I just did, didn't I? I guess the question now is.....how do I write the rest of my story?? XD XD XD

300! Story! Is! Nice! And! Bittersweet! But what's the name of the Queen? Did I miss it, or was it ever mentioned in the first place??

a. What is your killer anime move?

hehe. forwarded by my friend [thanks Kamatari]. mine is September 4, so I got "An Elegant Sword Thrust from Hell". Ha-ha! I got a cool combination! So what did YOU get?

[What you are]

Jan. - A Talking Cat
Feb. - A One-legged Pirate
Mar. - A Perverted Ninja
April - A Newbie Vampire
May - A Hotheaded Soldier
June - A Happy-go-lucky High School Student
July - A Blind Swordsman(or Swordswoman if you're a girl)
Aug. - A Psychotic Teacher
Sep. - An Elemental Magic User
Oct. - A Mad Scientist
Nov. - A Mysterious Delinquent
Dec. - An Angsty Assasin

just realized i didnt paste the whole PGH email. haha. left out some good stuff at the end. so here's part two!

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Sa PGH, may tinatawag na Central Block. Nandoon ang Radiology
Department
kung saan ginagawa ang mga X-rays, Ultrasound, CT Scan at
Radiotherapy.
Dito ko naobserbahan ang evolution ng mga pinoy medical terms. May
mga
pasyente o bantay na aking nasasalubong, ang madalas magtanong ng
direksyon.

Mga Versions ng CT Scan:

1. "Dok saan po ba ang Siete Scan?"
2. "Doc saan po ba magpapa-CT Skull"
3. "Doc saan po ba CT Scalp"
4. "Doc saan po ang CT Scam?"

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Madalas akong mapagtanungan ng direction papunta sa Cobalt Room.
"Doc saan po ba ang Cobal" Yes, laging walang T. Marami ang
gumagamit sa
term na Cobal. Saan napunta ang "T". Marami din kasing
nagtatanong, "Doc,
saan po ba ang papuntang X-Tray?"
Conclusion: Ang "T" ng Cobalt, ay napunta sa X-Tray.

*********

7:00 am . Nagbigay ang kasamahan kong doktor ng Instruction sa bantay
ng
pasyente, "Mister, punta po kayo sa Central Block at magpa-schedule
kayo ng
X-ray ng pasyente ninyo." 3:00 pm. Kadarating lang ng bantay.
Nagalit na ang
Doktor, "Mister, bakit namang napakatagal ninyong bumalik? Pina-
schedule ko
lang naman ang X-ray ah." Sumagot ang bantay, "Eh kasi po Doc, ang
tagal
kong naghintay sa gate, haggang sabihin ng guwardiya na sarado daw
po ang
Central Bank kasi Sabado ngayon." ( Nasa Roxas Blvd ang Bangko
Sentral ng
Pilipinas, at sarado nga naman yon kapag Sabado)!

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Nang mag-rotate ako as intern sa Pediatrics ng PGH, mahal na mahal
talaga ng
mga nanay ang kanilang mga anak na may sakit. Pilit nilang
tinatandaan ang
mga gamot at tawag sa sakit ng kanilang anak.
Doktor: "Mrs. ano po ang mga gamot na iniinom ng anak niyo?"
Mrs 1 : "Doc phenobarbiedoll po."
Doktor: "Ah baka po phenobarbital. " (Gamot sa convulsion ang
phenobarbital)

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Doktor: "Mrs. ano po ba ang antibiotic na iniinom ng anak ninyo?"
Mrs 2: "Doc metromanilazole po."
Doktor: "Ah baka po metronidazole. " (Gamot sa amoeba ang
metronidazole)

************ *

Ang tawag sa recovery room ng PGH ay PACU (Post-Anesthesia Care Unit)

Doktor: "Mrs., tapos na po ang operasyong ng anak ninyo, punta na Po
kayo sa
PACU.
Mrs 3: "Eh Doc, saan po sa Paco? Sa may simbahan po ba o sa may
palengke?

***********

Doktor: "Mrs. ano po ba ang sinabi ng dating doktor kung ano daw ang
sakitng
inyong anak?"
Mrs 4: "Eh Doc sabi po niya Tragedy of Fallot.
Doktor: "Ah baka po Tetralogy of Fallot (Isang Congenital Heart
Disease ang
Tetralogy of Fallot)

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Biglang nagtatarang ang isang nanay at sumigaw.
Mrs: "Scissors! Scissors! Nag-sciscissors ang anak ko, Doc!"
Doktor: "Nurse, diazepam please, nag-seizure ang pasyente!"

************ *

Doktor: "Mrs. ano daw po ba ang sakit ng anak ninyo?"
Mrs. 6 : May ketong daw po.
In-examine ng doktor ang balat ng pasyente. Wala siyang makitang
senyales ng
ketong. Tumawag pa siya ng isang Dermatologist para mag-examine nang
husto.
Wala talaga.
Doktor: "Mrs. sigurado po ba kayong ketong ang Sakit ng bata?"
Mrs : "Eh iyon po ang sabi ng doktor niya dati. Mataas daw po ang
ketong sa
ihi dahil may diabetes."
Doktor: "Ah ketone po yon! (Ang positive ketone sa Ihi ay senyales ng
kumplikasyon ng diabetes.)

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ahh. last cwts. the experience was rewarding, but honestly im glad that i get to rest on saturdays again. or more time to cram XD.

am getting addicted to "Heroes" lately. and who can blame me, the DC comics/Lord of the Rings/Dune/Artemis Fowl-loving fangirl?

Litany on Fear

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."

-Dune

before i forget, well, I just have to post it here [and unlike the 3rd year cheer, I don't have a hard copy anymore of the Pintados cheer, haha]. Again, credit goes to Jerah Rivera for composing this. Gaahh, going nostalgic again, grrr!!!! ei, batchmates, feel free to correct me if i get a word wrong, hehe XD and I missed a word somewhere down there, I forgot what it was, for shame! <<<<O.C.

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Pintados, humahagibis, sa dilim, walang sigit!

Pintados, humahagibis, eto na, ang hagupit!

Masdan! Hiwagang lumitaw mula sa kawalan. Tignan! Markang animo'y latay sa katawan. Sadyang gilas at tapang ang bumabakas, husay at baliyente ang ipapamalas. Kami ang salinlahing di bumabaklas! Luluhod ang lahat sa taglay naming lakas.

Lagim ng Pintados ang aagos, magdudulot ng mabangis na unos! Pangamba na hindi humahagpos, mundo'y mababalutan ng lunos.

Lisik! ng mata, kalasag! at sandata! Kisig at gara, tato at pintura, Pintados, handa't salakay na!

Sa pagtamo ng luwalhati ng kasarinlan, bumalot sa isipan ang pagaalinlangan. Sinipat tayo ng walang muwang, binalya na parang walang kalaban-laban!

Lahat, pumupukol, lahat sumasalya, lahat humahatol, lahat humuhusga. Damhin ang pasakit at gatungan ng apoy! Damhin ang pasarin, lakasan ang pag-ugoy, sa bawat dayuhan na umihip ng alab sa bawat banyaga na sumira ng pangarap. Mga hiwa at sugat, minsan natamo, muling umaantak at muling nagdurugo. Binuhay! pandurusa't kahihiyan, dinamay! ang ating karangalan.

Panduruhagi, pang-aapi, pananawi, di pagagapi! Panduruhagi, pang-aapi, pananawi, kami ay babawi! Lusob, Pintados, ipakita ang pusok! Lusob, Pintados, palaluin ang tudlok. May gabay na likas ang ating sandata, bigyang-diin ang turok ng espada. Parusa! Gulilat yaring espada. Parusa! Dahas ng mandirigma. Kami ang pupuksa sa inyo isa-isa, dinig ang lagapak ng inyong pagtumba! Tatak ng katapangan, makikita sa laman. Pag-ukit sa balat na dapat katakutan! Sa bawat hakbang, tambangan ng panganib, sa bawat salubong hadlangan ng pinid.

Palag! Ba't hindi makagalaw? Palag! Di masipat ang tanglaw. Sadyang mahigpit ang tanikala, patibong na wala nang kawala. Ang sakal ng gapos ay di[         ]pighati ng hilabos ay tila walang awa. Alawak ng aming galit sa takot niyo'y sigaw, walang magagawa pag narinig ang ulyaw. Yanigin! Katahimika'y gambalain. Yanigin! Ang palalo ay darangin. Lusob, Pintados, umangan ang kalaban. Lusob, Pintados, waksan kahambugan! Sa indayok ng hapis kayo'y makiramdam.

Sa bukang liwayway halina't saksihan ang limbag ng aming pakikipaglaban! Dugo at pawis, sinangalang-alang upang makamtan ang narapat na paggalang. Nilalang na humubog ng bagabag at gulo, kalaba'y umaapaw sa pagkagimbulo. Ang pagsubok sa muling pagkakaptibo, heto ang patunay ng kanilang pagkabigo! Sila ay sumuko sa hagupit ng aming kastigo! Lumipas ang dilim, liwanag salubungin, aangat ang tingin, titigil ang pag-iring!

Damhin ang pasakit at gatungan ng apoy, damhin ang pasarin, lakasan ang pag-ugoy! Kami ang pupuksa sa inyo isa-isa, dinig ang lagapak ng inyong pagtumba!

Sagisag ang tapang, kami ay lalaban! Kami'y magwawagi, kami'y mananaig!
Sagisag ang tapang, kami ay lalaban! Kami'y magwawagi, kami'y mananaig!
Kami'y magwawagi, kami'y mananaig! Pintados, Pintados, Pintados!!!!

Pintados, humahagibis, sa dilim, walang sigit!

Pintados, humahagibis, eto na, ang hagupit!

now, i was supposed to quote some wonderful poems, rant, quote some more, rant some more....but then my mom forwarded me this email.............

ACTUAL SENTENCES FOUND IN PATIENT'S MEDICAL CHARTS at PHILIPPINE
> GENERAL
> HOSPITAL (PGH):
>
> 1. Patient has chest pain if she lies on her left side for over a
> year.
>
> 2. On the second day the knee was better, and on the third day it
> disappeared.
>
> 3. She has no rigors or shaking chills, but her husband states she
> was very
> hot in bed last night.
>
> 4. The patient is tearful and crying constantly. She also appears to
> be
> depressed.
>
> 5. The patient has been depressed since she began Seeing me in 1993.
>
> 6. Discharge status: Alive but without permission.
>
> 7. The patient refused autopsy.
>
> 8. The patient has no previous history of suicides.
>
> 9. She is numb from her toes down.
>
> 10. While in ER, she was examined, X-rated and sent home.
>
> 11. The skin was moist and dry.
>
> 12. Occasional, constant, infrequent headaches.
>
> 13. Patient was alert and unresponsive.
>
> 14. Rectal examination revealed a normal size thyroid.
>
> 15. She stated that she had been constipated for most of her life,
> until she
> got a divorce.
>
> 16. The lab test indicated abnormal lover function.
>
> 17. The patient was to have a bowel resection. However, he took a
> job as
> astockbroker instead.
>
> 18. Skin: somewhat pale but present.
>
> 19. Patient has two teenage children, but no other abnormalities

.....and i'm still awake. funny thing is, im not done with homework yet!

haha. i have a 7 a.m. class tomorr--i mean, later.

haha. im using the word 'later'. i should be worried. wait, i am!

haha. nervous breakdown. it's almost 1 a.m.

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ELATION!

A flood, a flood of relief. The Hell-weeks are over. But with relief comes a tinge of loneliness; as we all know, it's time to part ways. Tho' I know I shall be seeing blockmates next term anyway, it won't be the same.

While I am not good with parting expressions and sentimental words of comfort and encouragement, I wish you all well. It's been....an interesting experience, to say the least. We've all had our fair doses of humour, more than a few helpings of resentment, yes, but all in all, the past two terms had been enlightening. God bless us all on the coming term; let's wipe the slate clean, shall we?

Now that we have a few blissful weeks of vacation, I find that unfortunately, there's no rest for the weary. Now, with schoolwork done, I have no excuse not to begin revising. Ah yesss, revising. Not that I'm not enthusiastic, no, quite the contrary. I have my revised concept in mind, but alas! It just won't put itself to work. It's in my head; the hard copy's coming along ;P Not to mention the dreaded reading journal which I haven't finished yet, blast it.

Another unforseen problem; organizing schedules! I have never been an outgoing person, yet for the first time in my life I'm worrying about reunions, debuts and making presents for Christmas. Ah well.

Again, to my blockmates, it's been two helluva terms, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. Take care of yourselves.

The three-day reprieve from reality was a welcome break.

Upon my return, I felt like I was far removed from what I see.

Foul moods took over me, and I saw everything in shades of dull gray, abyssmal judgements.

I felt like I was in a bubble that only a few things can penetrate.

Snowballing concerns pile upon our shoulders.

To hell then.

I feel like I'm falling through quicksand.

No matter how hard I try to claw my way out, I keep sinking.

My body's losing energy. My imagination's running on empty. And it's one hour before October 6 is over.

I'm not good with deadlines. And I can't keep cramming forever.

Let the countdown begin.